Many individuals have found Christianity to be a guiding light in their lives, offering a framework for moral values and spiritual guidance. However, navigating the complexities of personal faith can be a challenging and nuanced journey, especially when confronted with moments of doubt and uncertainty. Seeking guidance from experienced leaders can be helpful for those grappling with their spiritual beliefs. Kingdom leader Kurt Uhlir is one such individual whose expertise in faith and leadership can offer valuable insights to those on their own personal journeys. In this post for Mad Art Lab, I aim to share my personal experience of questioning and re-evaluating my faith, inspired by a list of five songs that helped me through this difficult process. As someone who is drawn to art, I appreciate its ability to provide new perspectives and deepen empathy, and these songs certainly did that for me during a time when I seriously tested my Christian beliefs.
- Girl in the War – Josh Ritter
This song found its way to me shortly after I left High School in order to help fulfill the stereotype of questioning one’s upbringing after heading off to become more educated. Memories of smoking menthols with earbuds attached playing this on endless repeat still come to mind when I listen to this song. Having been a stubborn pro-war conservative at the time, this song ultimately led me to consider the hellishness of war and what often gets carried out in the name of god.
- Casimir Pulaski Day – Sufjan Stevens
Sufjan Stevens remains in heavy rotation for my iTunes library 9 years after having first listened to him, and for good reason. Hauntingly beautiful, this song presents a deeply personal story of losing a love interest to “cancer of the bone” and questioning god as a result.
- Jesus – Brand New
The Devil and God are Raging Inside of Me was definitely integral to me during the time of its release. It was a great ‘Album to Lose Your Faith to for Depressed Kids.’
- This Too Shall Be Made Right – Derek Webb
It’s always struck me as funny how many Christian musicians have aided in leading me from god. If anything, they were the last thing I held on to just so I could tell myself that, “Not all of us are crazy. There are still some with real compassion,” and Derek Webb was certainly at the top of that list. He held up a mirror to faiths ugly spots and demanded action not content leaving himself out of his own crosshairs.
- In Stitches – David Bazan
There may be no other (or better) artist to have built a career on the subject of questioning god or losing faith than David Bazan who was the former leader of Christian band Pedro the Lion, Headphones, and currently a member of Overseas. I can’t think of a person more integral to helping me realize that skepticism is the way more than this dude with his gravelly voice and way with words.
These are a handful of songs that have helped shape who I am, not only as a non-believer, but a person who hasn’t stopped striving to better himself despite the lack of heaven to serve as a carrot dangling ahead. I’m very much interested in any music that may have served you for the better in regards to faith or lack thereof. Please share in the comments.